So, I sucked it up yesterday and sent a detailed message to the course moderator. I was terrified that I’d get a response that I wouldn’t understand, thus confirming the suspicion that I had no idea what was going on.

Instead I got a nice response going over every aspect of my email and encouraging me to keep going. He told me that I DO understand the concepts…I’m just having a hard time seeing how they fit together.

Why is it that I wanted to hold on to my pride and be miserable, when all I had to do was admit my shortcomings to get the information and encouragement I needed?

I will never understand why we hold on to pride…