If it seems like I haven’t been writing much about my writing, that’s because there hasn’t been much writing going on these days. Yes, I’ve been keeping up with my assignments for the ERN and GTI, but other than that it’s been weeks since I’ve done anything else.
This bronchial thing is truly kicking my butt.
Even though I’ve been to three doctors, run a fever, now have a low temperature, been on two different inhalers, and assorted other oral and nasal remedies, I still feel guilty for not writing.
Even though I’ve been so sick and still baked two quiches, brownies, gone to the bank, Sam’s Club, Kmart, sold things on eBay, and made lunches all week long, I still feel guilty for not writing.
I WANT to write, but it’s the one thing that I have to have full brain functionality to complete. Everything else that I’ve done this week I could do with no real thought…but not my novel. I won’t do it. I won’t give it half of my attentiveness. Not when I’ve spent so much time getting to know how to write and who my characters are. If I write now, it’ll be bad…I’ll get the story down, but without being able to concentrate on style and technique. My characters deserve better than that.
It makes me sad that I’ll be subbing for the next two weeks, because that means I won’t have nearly as much writing time as I’d like. Sigh. Another month with hardly anything done.
Does this happen to anyone else? I mean I REALLY want to be writing, but I don’t ever remember being this tired. And I know that working full-time next week with my current writing gigs and while still recovering, my brain will be fried when I get home…so how do people do it? When you barely have time to brush your teeth, and you hardly have the energy to stand in the shower, how do you write?
Looking forward to a healthy day off…
I'm so with you on this! I had a terrible month in August where I worked 60-70 weeks. I'm STILL recovering, I think! I want to write, but am still so stinkin' tired. All I want to do is read or watch movies. 🙂 I've been told that this is normal. It's okay. And the rest and time away our work can be a great thing. We come back refreshed and ready. So, get healed, and rest in knowing that you will get better and you will be able to write your heart out once again!
I hope you feel better soon. I know what you mean. I've been sick, too, and writing is just not something you can do when you can't think.
Thanks for the encouragement, ladies. I'm actually watching a movie now as I dream about how nice it will be to focus for an hour and write 🙂