If it seems like I haven’t been writing much about my writing, that’s because there hasn’t been much writing going on these days. Yes, I’ve been keeping up with my assignments for the ERN and GTI, but other than that it’s been weeks since I’ve done anything else.
This bronchial thing is truly kicking my butt.
Even though I’ve been to three doctors, run a fever, now have a low temperature, been on two different inhalers, and assorted other oral and nasal remedies, I still feel guilty for not writing.
Even though I’ve been so sick and still baked two quiches, brownies, gone to the bank, Sam’s Club, Kmart, sold things on eBay, and made lunches all week long, I still feel guilty for not writing.
I WANT to write, but it’s the one thing that I have to have full brain functionality to complete. Everything else that I’ve done this week I could do with no real thought…but not my novel. I won’t do it. I won’t give it half of my attentiveness. Not when I’ve spent so much time getting to know how to write and who my characters are. If I write now, it’ll be bad…I’ll get the story down, but without being able to concentrate on style and technique. My characters deserve better than that.
It makes me sad that I’ll be subbing for the next two weeks, because that means I won’t have nearly as much writing time as I’d like. Sigh. Another month with hardly anything done.
Does this happen to anyone else? I mean I REALLY want to be writing, but I don’t ever remember being this tired. And I know that working full-time next week with my current writing gigs and while still recovering, my brain will be fried when I get home…so how do people do it? When you barely have time to brush your teeth, and you hardly have the energy to stand in the shower, how do you write?
Looking forward to a healthy day off…