Ahhh. I can say that and mean it!
To say that the past week has been rough would be … an understatement doesn’t seem to cut it here. I wanted to stick my head through the wall and ignore the world (I know, the sand would be gentler but the hard blow to the head might knock some sense into it).
Before I do anything else, I want to thank everyone for their suggestions and help with my ‘now what?’ dilemma. I read them all and tried to figure it all out. I searched blogs and websites for help. I reread your suggestions. Panic closed in. I was completely overwhelmed and it was getting worse. Especially when I read a suggestion: ‘If it’s not fun, then stop’.
This week has not been fun. But I don’t WANT to stop. “Why?” I asked myself. “Because I honestly believe this is what God wants me doing right now,” I told myself. “Are you sure?” myself questioned I (sorry…had to mix it up).
The point is this: my lightning quick brain finally pulled over, stopped the car, and asked God for directions. He is SO much better than a Tom-Tom!!
I’ve decided to put my manuscripts aside for a month or two. I’m going to go over my contest scores to check for consistently low marks. Then I’m going to buy books, check the ACFW course archives, and learn about those things.
I mean, why would I keep editing my manuscripts or writing new ones if I KNOW that I have weaknesses but I haven’t done anything to change them? I’d just have to correct those mistakes later. Duh!
I know, it makes so much sense NOW, but I really couldn’t make heads or tails of it before.
Oh, no! I just realized that it’s 4:15 and I have company coming for dinner if 45 minutes!!! I’m so out of here…catch ya later to let you know what I’m studying first!!